Well this should be relatable at least to us mortals that weren’t born with a paintbrush in our hand or brought up as some master’s apprentice or never ever just decided something we made sucks so bad we really hurt over it.
Self doubt and criticism are signs you are going in the right direction.
They say perfection is a moving target and the closer you get to it, the father away it is. The Kruger Dunning effect which most us are aware of just reminds us that the best we can settle for is at least finding comfort in mediocrity or at least feeling that way ….IF you are not completely disillusional.
So accept that about everything just find comfort that you know you need to be better. But then comes someone who is way way better and you wonder about getting THERE. My point is, from my own experience Beating myself up is DEFINITELY the toughest part. Besides I WANT to be proud of a few pieces I put up but I also know they aren’t THAT good are they. But they ARE.
My soap box
I can’t hate on Bob Ross but I for one, cant’t stand that people can’t differentiate ‘high art’ from what he was doing. If you want to have fun go for it! BUT…. Try to understand things like deep emotion and much of what makes a great work of art what it is vs what I equate to building models and putting ships in bottles.
Look at this:
It’s not “bad”
Now Look at THIS:
I rest my case.
We are up against ourselves and anyone who honestly can’t see the difference or don’t want to…. that and not getting paid for what you love as easily.
I hope I can at least take the first steps to change that and if you tell me art is a “hobby” I might have to kick your ass.